Writing Again


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More to celebrate coming soon. ūüėÄ

It has been a while, a very LONG while, since I last posted on any blogs other than the occasional blurb on Facebook.  Last known post here was back in November.  Her we are at the end of April.

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Bow before your feline overlords

Not a lot has happened during these five months. ¬†Very little in fact beyond work and taking care of myself, my son, and our family. ¬†Naturally, my three cats get the lion’s share of the attention but then, they are our furry overlords and must be treated as such. ¬†If either of them demand my attention, they’ll get it in some form or another. ¬†Naturally, it is never enough… to them.

But, as the title of this post says, I am writing again.  It has been too long.  A couple of years too long since I actually sat down and wrote.  I guess college burned me out that badly as far as writing.  Speech class alone was a LOT of writing, then there was English Comp and Lit to slog through.  Yeah, there was a lot of writing.

This story is not yet named, but it starts off rather sad. ¬†Depressing if you ask me, and it wasn’t easy to write. ¬†It just came to me one day at work and I guess my general mood added to the overall idea of how to start this one off. ¬†But, the fact of the matter is, I am back to writing.

So, to prove I am doing something, here’s an excerpt:

(Warning: it is a bit long)

Slowly, Firiel looked up at Tish then a soft laugh bubbled its way up her sore throat.¬† ‚ÄúI keep telling you, Tish, there is no need to be so formal with us.‚Ä̬† Though the laugh started a coughing fit which curled the old cat up in pain, she still maintained a brighter outlook.¬† As best as she could, she waved off her mate when he tried to help her through the episode.¬† ‚ÄúNo.¬† Vorn, I‚Äôll be fine,‚ÄĚ she finally gasped as she relaxed.

‚ÄúMom, please,‚ÄĚ pleaded her son before the look all children have come to understand from their mothers appeared in the weather face.¬† ‚ÄúWe love you.¬† Let us help you through this.‚ÄĚ

‚ÄúNo, son.‚ÄĚ She whispered, struggling to get just a few more minutes with her family.¬† ‚ÄúI‚Äôll be fine.‚Ä̬† Then, with the last of her strength, she sat up and pointed towards a dusty old box sitting on a shelf beside a large soft cushion.¬† ‚ÄúLook in that box.¬† My rings.¬† Make sure Rhaina get the turquoise one, Minka.¬† That one is hers.¬† Yours is my bonding ring.‚Ä̬† She gave her daughter a weakened smile then gave her attention to her son.¬† ‚ÄúThere is a gold band in there, that one is yours.¬† Tish, my pearl pendant is for you.¬† Use them to remember me by.‚ÄĚ

No sooner had the last words left her lips then she lost any strength she had left.  Her body slumped back against the pillows and she lay there gasping for her last breath.  Vorn slipped his arms around her shoulder and listened to her heart work hard to keep beating slowing with each remaining beat.

‚ÄúI‚Ķ love‚Ķ you‚Ķ‚ÄĚ she whispered softly into his ear with her final breath.¬† Her eyes closed then her body went still.¬† As if a switch went off, the color drained from her fur with the last rattling breath left her body.

Wracked by uncontrollable sobbing, Vorn held beloved wife tight in his arms while his children watched; unable to believe that their mother was gone.¬† ‚ÄúI‚Äôll always love you, Firiel.¬† Always.‚Ä̬† He choked his words into her cheek fur, clinging to her lifeless body as if just holding on tight would bring her back.

Micah, Tish, and Minka watched, trying not to believe what their own senses told them.  Tears rolled down their cheeks in fresh rivers unchecked.  Only their father’s sobs could be heard in the quiet of the bower.  His grief knew no bounds.  Theirs was too fresh to accept but it was growing quickly within them.

I hope you enjoyed this.  Maybe more will be shared later.  For now, feel free to critique and comment.

Ciao for now!

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Long Time No Post… Again


It has been an extremely long time since I last wrote an actual blog post. ¬†Other than a few slices of what was happening in my life over on Facebook, I haven’t touched my blogs in over a year.

Just to recap since the last post; my Aunt Pat died a year ago May.  It was a very sudden heart attack when she was getting out of the pool.  She was gone before reaching the hospital.

My last surviving grandparent, Grammy, passed away back in February. ¬†Her death was expected. ¬†She had been declining over the last couple of years since her operation to have a few melanoma tumors removed from her scalp. ¬†She went in alert and ornery and came out a very different person. ¬†We think she have had a mini stroke during the operation to bring about such a huge change. ¬†At least mom and I got to see her one last time when we went down for Aunt Pat’s funeral and she got to meet Colin and see how bright and vibrant he is.

I loved my grandmother, but she was the poster child for bipolar and I caught the brunt of some of her opinions and anger. ¬†But, I am happy that she is no longer suffering and is probably driving my grandfather up a wall in Heaven right now. ¬†I can just hear her yelling “Charles!” because of something he did.

When we went to my Aunt’s funeral last year, we didn’t tell Grammy that her oldest daughter had died. ¬†That news would have killed her quickly. ¬†But, she knew something wasn’t right. ¬†Something was out of place though an unexpected visit from her middle child and a granddaughter wasn’t too out of the ordinary. ¬†All we dared to tell her was that she would see Pat soon. ¬†Which is true in a sense. ¬†We didn’t know how much longer we’d have with Grammy but we knew then it wasn’t long.

As for myself, and my family, we’re all in good health and improving it one day at a time. ¬†For now, my diabetes is getting under control again and my doctor, wonderful lady, is concerned about my cholesterol so I have added a new pill to my daily regimen. ¬†Yes, I am finally under doctor care again. ¬†Which means, I should be getting myself back into a better routine and working to bring my blood sugar back down to where it should be.

She also added another pill to aid my metformin. ¬†After three weeks of this, I am starting to feel more energized and less tired all day. ¬†I still feel blah in general, especially when it comes to writing or even art in general. ¬†I need to edit book one of Black Friday and finish writing book two. ¬†My erotic anthology needs not just editing but stories written. ¬†One is started and two others planned. ¬†Test of Ascension is in serious need of editing and beta reading. ¬† Any one willing to read this to help get the introduction fixed as well as ideas to fill in the gaps as well as smoothing it out, please, give me a note and I’ll send a copy.

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Best thing about me is I finally graduated from college.  I have an Associate degree in Business Administration.  Woo hoo!  Yes!!

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hat tossing ceremony at graduation

Dave, for those who have seen the posts on Facebook, is doing great.  He had an abscess on the back of his lymphodema mass go septic and rupture in such a way, the mess looked like a crime scene.  He had to have the fire department come help the EMTs get him out of the bathroom where he discovered the problem when he went to do his usual wake up routine.  As serious as it was, when looking back, it is funny, but Dave was in the hospital just over a week and had surgery to clean out the abscess.  This was at the beginning of May.  Now, that fist sized hole is how about the size of my pinky and he can take a shower again.

Even better, he has lost just over 50 pounds, so we are all happy.  Yeah, he has the help of insulin injections right now, but the weight loss is a welcome thing.  Plus, he is watching his diet much better.  For now, the goal is to lose five pounds per month.

He is seeking a new doctor. ¬†The one he went to see for the abscess did nothing except put him on insulin and refilled his prescriptions. ¬†He didn’t bother looking at it or anything. ¬†Otherwise, there would not have been such a huge mess for me to clean. ¬†It would have been drained safely there in the doctor’s office or he could have been transported to the hospital instead of it rupturing at home where all kinds of germs and such can make things worse. ¬†We are leaving Morton Clinic as doctor of choice. ¬†We are needing a bariatric doctor here in Tulsa that takes SoonerCare for Dave. ¬†Suggestions are more than welcome.

There may be more blog posts once I’m able to kick myself in the rump to actually do it. ¬†Will there be another post soon? ¬†I don’t know. ¬†But, let me just say this, this blog has seen 4 years as of the end of May. ¬†My LiveJournal account, where my blogging began is now 12 years old. ¬†My oldest art account, FurAffinity.net, is 10 years old now. ¬†I haven’t posted anything new on there is about a year.

So, you know, those who are still watching, I am here and still alive. ¬†Still trying to figure things out while the muse is on vacation. ¬†Until it is official, I am not depressed or overwhelmed with all I have sitting around begging for my attention. ¬†I’m just tired. ¬†Very, very, tired, and the sleep is clinging to me like a cozy blanket on a cold winter’s day; all I want to do is sleep.

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Have you gone without writing because of issues other than personal, working, or medical?

A Quiet Return


It has been far too long since I last posted anything that was not a reblog.  We are talking months, if not a year at the very least for original content from me on this little corner of the internet.  For that, I am very sorry for so much silence.

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There is a good reason for so much silence. ¬†For the last two years, I have given my time to earning my degree. ¬†It has been rough and very little of it has been easy, but it has definitely been well worth it. ¬†So many papers and projects filled my head driving out most of my writing desire that didn’t pertain to that subject of the month.

I will be returning to writing, especially my novels in waiting and the resubmit of Black Friday for relaunch.  First things first, though, I have to see how my work schedule will be once my externship is done at the end of the month.

For those in the know, my Wal-Mart was one of the six that was closed in April of this year.  In my store, there really were massive plumbing issues which required the store to be closed so they could fix them.  What few did know was how badly it really was.

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Here is what I know about that subject.  My store (located at Admiral and Memorial in Tulsa, OK) was built on the side of a hill.  Not a very intelligent idea in my opinion and, more than likely, contributed to the issues.  Inspections showed completely clogged pipes, pipes that were too small, and in places caved in or crushed.  Actual digging found worse and as they did repairs, more breakage occurred.  At this time, it is a hot mess inside that building while they work hard on getting everything back to code and ready for us to come back and open the store.

Speaking of opening the store, the earliest projection is around Halloween. ¬†I cannot wait. ¬†That store is where I belong for now and I miss it. ¬†Where I am now (21st and Yale) is nice and is busy even for a Neighborhood Market, but it isn’t the same. ¬†The busiest days are slow compared to what I’ve seen since 2008. ¬†Also, there isn’t room for advancement. ¬†But, returning to my old store will give that opportunity. ¬†Maybe not immediately, but it will be there. ¬†I am ready to step up and put all I have learned and experienced since 1992 to use so it can be fine tuned and ready for my own business when more important issues are properly handled and put away.

Sometime, just after I am back at Admiral, I’ll have probably one of the biggest accomplishments of my life happening. ¬†November 20th, at 6:30 PM, I will be receiving my Associate degree in Business Administration. ¬†I am ready for this moment.woman-door

For now, I am going to work my way through this month with the Tulsa chapter of SCORE. ¬†There are a lot of workshops to attend and learn from as well as some work around the office they’ll have me do. ¬†Not a lot of room for writing or even drawing this month alone, but I am sure I’ll figure something out on the days when I won’t have quite so much to do.

Week in Review


Lame title is lame. ¬†I know. ¬†Couldn’t think of a better one. ¬†Since this a week in review, you deserve to hear some of what happened to me this week.

globe_w_bookClasses started up again on Monday. ¬†Business Communications is this months topic. ¬†So far, this is probably the one course that Rebekah Loper and The BNC wished I had a long time ago. ¬†It isn’t just about the different ways we communicate in a business setting, but make it legible, readable, and professional from the more casual co-worker to co-worker ¬†messages to the more formal business to business communiques we see fluttering about the business world.

What this means we do a lot of editing practice, typing tests to get our speed up to the minimum of 45 WPM, which I’m doing fairly well with my average around 38 WPM currently, and working on proper grammar, sentence structure, and when and how to use a comma. ¬†In other words, this is an advanced English class.

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Now, this goes beyond English and all those crazy rules, we also go over basic etiquette in the office setting, and all that fun stuff. ¬†To make it even better, my professor is an English Major, so he is up on all the writerly dos and don’ts we should know. ¬†To help us, he has posted the various rules for punctuation, comma usage, and other need to know items that I honestly do need to keep in mind. ¬†Much of it has already been printed off for easy use and the rest will be done very soon.

A month of this course and I should have it memorized, or at the very least close to it for use in my own writing.  This professor and my Comp I professor have done so much in helping me improve my own writing.  Both do understand that most of the shorthand we see running rampant on the internet now causes a lot of twitching.  *shudder*

Other than college, I have been working. ¬†Wal-Mart is still where I can be found when I’m not at home or in class. ¬†The days I do have classes, I work evenings until 11 p.m. then the rest, with the exception of one, I can work normal hours and have a full eight hour shift. ¬†Part-time sucks, but it gets the bills paid. ¬†We just won’t have much to do extra until we can set aside some hobby funds for printing my art work and making small items for sale at a swap and shop in Pryor a dear friend of mine runs.

Finding time to work on small hobby stuff and writing is easy enough to do.  What is difficult is tearing myself away from distractions long enough to do them.  *flails*

By the end of this month, I should have everything back on track so that I can sit back and focus on plot and other things better than the worry of how to meet bills.  Of course, selling artwork and other things will help alleviate that, too.

That is my week in review.  Not much outside of school and work.  *shrug*

Now, honest opinion, please. ¬†The hobby items I plan to sell along with my artwork are handmade soap and key chains. ¬†I don’t have the dexterity or feeling in my fingers to manage jewelry since they require intricate stitch work, but leather strips, large beads, and some key rings don’t require a lot of either, just time and patience. ¬†The soap is something I picked up via a kit I found on sale and I like it. ¬†It’s easy and not too messy. ¬†Even if it did make a mess, the clean up is a breeze.

Think on those ideas. ¬†I’ll be researching different recipes for soap bases and the different types out there.

Happy New Year


More to celebrate coming soon.  :D
More to celebrate coming soon. ūüėÄ

So, the new year has begun and we are six days into it. ¬†I could say I was busy as an excuse for not posting before now, but that wouldn’t be true. ¬†Yes, I am working. ¬†But not full-time. ¬†As long as I’m in school, I’ll be working part-time hours just to have the extra study time.

In all honesty, I haven’t posted since November, maybe October. ¬†Not because of work or seeking work,but because I have not felt like writing anything. ¬†I barely managed to get through NaNoWriMo and most of that was due to the fact that I was doing a lot of writing in English Comp and my teacher was cheering me on in class as well as encouraging me to help others. ¬†He’s an English major and thought I did well in my writing and better in my editing.

The primary reason for not writing or posting is simply stress over how I was going to meet bills and the huge amount of worry I was under. ¬†Thankfully, I’m back with Wal-Mart as a cashier, now, so there’s income and they are doing well to give me my days off together when they can and as many hours as possible while working around my class schedule and Colin’s therapy day.

Between classes and work, finding time to write hasn’t been easy, but I do have time, just no weekends to go write-ins or much else. ¬†Thankfully, the stress and worry about the bills, especially rent, is lifting. ¬†All I need now is for tax time to roll around so I can use the refund to get my rent caught up again and the power bill current. ¬†Then, maybe, I get the medical stuff took care of though I may do a fund-raiser type thing to help with that. ¬†I’ve a few sites in mind which are reputable.

With the worst stress lowered, I feel like writing, but now I need to reacquaint myself with the characters and plots.  Which starts the whole process over again.  *flails*

So, I am setting myself a couple of goals for the year since I didn’t sign up for #Writemotivation this month.

Holy Mackerel!  That's more than two goals!
Holy Mackerel! That’s more than two goals!

1) Finish current edits on SoNL and get at least one round of beta/critiques done on the full manuscript.  stretch goal: two to three rounds of beta/critiques.

2) Finish editing on Test of Ascension and one round of beta/critique.  (18+ if interested in this one)  stretch goal: three rounds of beta/critique and submission to Smashwords or other site for publication under my net name.

3) Finish rough draft of Black Friday 2.  stretch goal: finish rough draft and one round of edits (not counting the spell and grammar check)

4) Finish edits/rewrite of Black Friday (book one).  stretch goal: finish edits/rewrite and submit for republication.

5) Lose 20 pounds and stick to some kind of exercise program.  stretch goal: Lose 50 pounds and stick to an exercise program.

6) Be more active in Colin and Adam’s lives. ¬†stretch goal: Take the boys on a real vacation we will all enjoy.

7) Get all bills current or eliminated completely.  stretch goal: Have all bills gone, except for power, rent, cable, etc, etc, etc, by the end of July, or very close to gone by then.

8) Post more often even when depression sends me to bed more often than what I should.

We’ll see how well I keep to these throughout the year.

Very Surprising!


Holy Mackerel!  That was fast!
Holy Mackerel! That was fast!

For once, the speed of government surprised me. ¬†I’m not kidding, what should have been a couple of days was a couple of hours!

What am I talking about, you ask?

I finally completed my application for the state insurance license.  The application was a pain in the neck to fill out and required a couple of phone calls to get all the information I needed to complete it.  On top of that, I needed some money to pay for the license itself.  *sigh*

Coming up with the money wasn’t easy. ¬†I don’t like asking people, including family, for money. ¬†Thankfully, my sister lent me the money. ¬†Instead of paying off the last of my student loan (a small sum at the moment) she agreed to take care of this so I can get back on my feet and keep my apartment. ¬†Once bills are caught up, she and others will be paid back.

So, back to today. ¬†I spent about an hour filling in blanks and talking on the phone to get this application done. ¬†It stated that it will be a couple of days before it’ll be looked over and approved/disapproved. ¬†The email saying it was being processed arrived within the hour saying the same thing.

With that out of the way, I went through and caught up on my messages and read a few blog posts, even did my PCH entries (my retirement fund in the making ;)) then vegged with the cats and did a puzzle to pass the time.  Normal stuff when not writing or drawing. (Inspiration usually comes while cuddling happy kitties or kids).

Low and behold, a couple of hours later while I’m checking email again while doing the dishes, the email arrived saying my app is approved and my license is on the way! ¬†That came as a complete surprise because we all know how slow the government, state or federal, moves faster than the pace of a handicapped snail using a walker on a good day. ¬†This makes for one happy unemployed mommy.

So, it is now official, I am an insurance agent.

Now, the training starts.  >.<  At least this old woman can learn new tricks with little prodding.

cheetah1If anyone has noticed, I am behind on posts. ¬†It was all explained in my previous post about why. ¬†We weren’t gone all the time, so the excuse isn’t a good one, but it is the truth. ¬†I have four posts to write, two for book reviews (one isn’t really a book, per se, but it is a good story), and two restaurant reviews. ¬†One of the restaurant reviews is new, the other is for a place I go to often. ¬†I’m sure all of you will enjoy both places and both books.

So, keep an eye on this site for the new reviews.

Alert the Media!


*flails wildly then faceplants on the floor*

One down, one to go!  Time to celebrate the first win!
One down, one to go! Time to celebrate the first win!

Those who have kept track and rooting for me, you can finally cheer. ¬†I passed the state exam for Life/Accident and Health products portion of the state licensing exam. ¬†It almost wasn’t going to happen due to technical issues with the computer I was on.

Wasn’t anything I did. ¬†Nope, not this time. ¬†ūüėČ ¬†The computer was acting up before I got there. ¬†They had to reboot it four times before I could take the test. ¬†The crazy thing would freeze at the end of the sample test (I swear it’s to make sure people understand what country¬†they’re in with all the America centric questions) and not let me continue. ¬†The final reboot let me complete the practice and got me all the way through to the end and tallied my score.

Maybe I did threaten to bring a tech-god to fix the problem or IT was going to be there after I was done to upgrade and fix the problem, I don’t know, but it did work.

It’s done. ¬†Finally done! ¬†I won’t have to worry about it again unless the license lapses for any reason. ¬†From here on out, it will be continuing¬†education to keep me up to date on changes made in the insurance code and ethics courses to prove I won’t commit fraud or something to that matter. ¬†That will only be 24 hours per year, so no worries.

Due to studying this week, and other things going on, I didn’t do any writing. ¬†Not all was distractions with Facebook, I promise, though some were along that line. ¬†There was review and extra studying on the sections I needed more focus, such as Medicare and Long-term Care policies.

This means I have nothing new to give on Black Friday 2 nor anything to report on my Camp Nano novel. ¬†Both of those needed to be set aside for the purpose of passing the most pain in the neck test I have ever taken. ¬†At least it did pay off and I can put some effort into both of the projects when I’m not working or training.

Which means I have this weekend free after the shopping is done and Monday between doctor appointments for Colin and Dave.

OW!  Hot stuff!
OW! Hot stuff!

That reminds me, keep Dave in your thoughts, he is starting down the road toward gastric surgery to help him get rid of his excess weight and the lymphedema¬†lump on his inner thigh. ¬†Monday, he consults with his doctor about which procedure¬†he’ll recommend then starting the string of tests which have to be done before the operation date. ¬†One way, or another, we will get this done; even if it means I have to pay for incredible insurance which will cover the surgery, tests, and post-op visits.

Thankfully, we already know, he won’t be down for more than a day or two and be on a protein shake diet for a few months. ¬†But, it will end his diabetes almost immediately and start straightening out other weight related issues. ¬†This also means that I’ll be forced to diet, too. ¬†But this is a good thing. ¬†I need to lose about half my body weight to be within the target range for my height¬†and build.

Okay, I rambled too much.

I hope everyone had a safe and fun-filled 4th of July.

Do you have anything to celebrate this week?